trippppp

If I was choking right now, nobody could save me. I'm alone in my apartment. I'd die alone. That's scary. I wonder how red my face is. I just sneezed with (marijuana) smoke in my mouth and now my throat is raw. It hurts. Mabs I need some watah!

I'm high right now. Is that already apparent?

BRB - need watah! Stat!

Got some water, and some popcorn. Unreal.

Shit, I forgot about this. Throat doesn't hurt at all anymore. Unreal.

So E... never really followed up on that... yeah, so I cracked on Thursday and messaged her. The conversation was brutal - one-word answers and shit. Rough. Then I tried her Friday again. Also rough. Then Friday my friend's like, "E texted me, she's hammered, call her" and so I didn't call, but I texted, but I accidentally hit dial, I think... then I click hang-up and text instead... This is confusing me... I'm high, so that's rough... Anyway, so I text and she calls me and is like, "Did you call me?" and I'm like "No" so she's like "okay, bye!" and I'm like, "uhhh okay, bye!" It was awkward. Then we texted for a bit longer, and then she said she was going to sleep. The texts were dumb though, cuz we were like both drunk. Anyway, Saturday and SUnday I didn't msg/text/Facebook/etc. THen today I don't msg either because I'm trying not to and she messages me, and it was so weird and rough and strange... I just don't get it. Why does she talk to me anymore? And why, when she does, is it so different?

I'm tripping!