QT

I haven't posted in 9 days... which is weird because I was posting pretty much daily for a bit there. I think I stopped because this was becoming a blog all about E., which I never wanted. I want to be able to post about shit I wouldn't anywhere else, BUT - this is getting boring. Tricycle was getting boring. I think I'm pulling out of this slump though, which is sweet. I think I just fell into that well-known pattern of crushing on a straight girl, getting overly excited, and then (inevitably) getting overly depressed about it. I've stopped talking to her pretty much completely though, and it's getting easier each day, so I think that'll help. I mean, how many straight girls did I crush on before Douche? There were at least 4 big ones... I've had 2 since Douche, so maybe 2 more? Oh God... I don't want to be single for that long.

I saw a TOTAL cutie at a bubble tea place last night. I can't get her out of my brain. That was a good sign... although E. still found her way into my fantasies last night / today.

Speaking of which: masturbation followed by cigarettes is the best way to start a day.

Alright, enough for now!