Day 2

Day 2 has begun. I've got about 45 minutes until I leave for work, so it's still relatively early in the day, but, as always, it will be a challenge. I wonder how long it's gonna take. I wonder if it's gonna be as straightforward as just making it through each day without caving. I wonder if she's gonna message me. I wonder if it's gonna be complicated and if something new will throw me off... something like her drunk texting me again... something like her taking my "hard to get"ness and running with it, like her chasing me instead... Whatever happens, eventually there's gonna be some kind of "solution"... some kind of "Oh okay, so this is how it is". There's always one of those moments.

Additionally, I'm having some anxieties about money. I think it's about time I go to the bank and work out some kind of plan or get some kind of advice. I'm 22 now and eventually I'm gonna look into things like a car (once I get my license) or a house or something, and I imagine my credit right now is kind of shit, but there's gotta be some kind of solution, so I should try and find it.

I'm going on a big trip for almost all of July. I'm gonna make a promise to myself RIGHT NOW that I will meet with someone at the bank before June 26th.

I will meet with someone at the bank about my finances before June 26th.

I don't want to have this anxiety on my trip, so I promise I will sort this out beforehand.

I may have screwed myself a bit, but I can't be in that bad shape... or if I am, there's a solution.


**EDIT... a couple hours later**
I'm at work. She's online. The true Day 2 battle has begun.

**EDIT 2**
She's on Facebook Chat, but not MSN. Have I been blocked?

**EDIT 3**
She's back on MSN. Still no messaging. Rough times.

**EDIT 4**
Fuuuucccckkkk. She's on Facebook Chat, but not MSN again. I'm wondering if it's a legit block. Needless to say, not pleased.