Future? Fuck you.

There are a bunch of things I'm feeling an urge to discuss. I hope that I articulate myself well and that I don't get too tired to talk about it all.

First of all: my ex-girlfriend. I'm not sure if I've mentioned her, but it doesn't matter. We were together for two years and then broke up. There was no real drama, it was just over between us. 11 days after we broke up she was in a new relationship with someone and now (almost 5 months) later, she still is. It wasn't easy to deal with that, but I get stronger daily. Today she was talking to me about having a family eventually, moving away from the city she currently resides in, and her plans with her GF. I don't know, it's just not something I want to hear, but I get frustrated when it upsets me because it's been 5 months. Shouldn't I be able to handle it? Or should I stop subjecting myself to situations where I could end up hearing stuff like this, a.k.a. online chat with her? OR should she be more sensitive? I could tell her that I don't like it, but then that means that she knows that I'm still upset. Who cares if she knows that though? The truth is, I'm upset when it comes to some things, but not others, and I don't feel like I'd be able to express that. I guess I just deal with it and get stronger. I need to be living in reality and this is it. If I want to maintain a relationship with her, I will get used to these things. If I don't, then I don't have to get used to anything.

Wow. That was actually a really productive way of looking at things. I feel better.

What else? Actually, I am too tired to write, BUT I will write tomorrow about the campaign I was involved with today and how I felt about it.